Natural Monitored Cycle U/S today revealed

5 Follies on the Left 13mm, 11 1/2mm, 10mm and two >7mm

3 Follies on the Right but all measured 5mm and less

No BW was done, Have to go back on Wednesday morning for another U/S

Aaron and I went to lunch and afterward he asked if I wanted to go to Babies R Us to walk around. He said he was thinking of all the things we havent done yet that we could do to summon the baby spirit to visit and stay with us.

We walked around and started making our list of wishes we actually had an enjoyable time doing it.

This is what I am taking this natural cycle and it seems to be working...

B12

B6

Baby Aspirin

Vitex (fertiliaid) Tea 2x's a day

Estroven

Metformin

then after I 'O' I will be starting the Progesterone suppositories til I get my BFP!!

I am telling myself I will reach my goal this cycle to have a BFP that STICKS!!, in fact I was talking to the follies this afternoon telling them they need to get big and strong so they can become the baby(ies) of our dreams.....

Will post again after Wed U/S

Cycle Day 8 Ultrasound results

Went for the US this AM and it appears there are 3 Follies on the right 2 of which are almost ready and 4-5 on the left 2 of which are almost ready.

I have to go back for another US tomorrow AM to check them again then decided when to trigger and do IUI......

This weekend is going to be a challenge though if we have to do the IUI because on Saturday morning I am suppose to get a Flu shot with my mom very early in the am and if its Sunday we have my nephew and we have to be at my moms by 1015am. There is no way we could be in Marlton have the procedure and be back before then....The only thing I can do is hope that it will be Sunday and we take seperate cars. Aaron can leave after his part and I can do the procedure on my own. he doesnt like that idea though because he insists he has to be with me for every appt even if its just BW.

Its not that I dont want to tell them its just that after 5 miscarriages and then not being able to concieve again since April '08 of which they dont know because I dont want them to have to worry about anything but taking care of themselves. They lost so much this last 5 years I dont want to compound their pain by the whole infertility pregnancy loss thing we got goin on here.....

I just want to be able to surprise them one day by saying"Guess what"....my mom will fall over!!

Cycle 2 Day 4

So, I went to the doctors saturday morning, Day 2 and he said my ovaries look good, the lining looks good and there is the start of follicles in each ovary. Started the Clomid 100mg yesterday, Day 3. Feeling good just VERY tired but that could be too because we were running like crazy all weekend........

I go back to the doctors this Saturday will up date after that.......

I played games with my mind.....

Sooo much that I forgot to make the appointment to go 'get the results' today. I have major anxiety over things like I have said before so when I was told I would have to wait another week to find out "yes" or no I started tricking my mind into not thinking about it, even though every time I lay down my boobs hurt, they are twice the size they were 3 weeks ago, I get random nausea and some pinching pains (which I heard are a 'norm' thing)..........

I called this morning and told them I did not get my period and I am calling as instructed to make my appointment.....She asked if I wanted to come in tomorrow morning or wednesday Morning....I said TOMORROW....Cause now thats all I can think about today now and I REFUSE to do a home test out of superstition!!

I guess we will all just have to wait another 24-48 hours.......UGH!!

Tick Toc....

This week is dragging!! Every day I am consumed with the thought of whether I am or am not..... I know I am fortunate that most people wouldnt even suspect at this point but we have had a 3 year journey and since I am having symptoms and Blood work that is looking like success I just want the POSITIVE!!!

Aaron is even geting anxious because there is nothing in this world he loves more than 'playtime' and during 'playtime' he said to me "so when do you go get pictures of them??" Gotta love him!!

Consuming my time with Bloggin, surfing, Playing the Wii, Spending time with the Corradetti twins, and Cleaning my butt off.......By Monday I should be pretty well spent on Nerves....

Another week to go....

So we went to the doctors yesterday morning. I had Blood work done nd then they swept me off to my usual Ultrasound room....When the doctor came in the first thing she said was "we will not be able to tel about pregnancy today we are just measuring what we see, you will have to come back next week for Pregnancy test and US". Ok i think let me just lay back than and not think about it, But I couldnt!! I saw 2 rather big 'things' and one fairly large 'thing' and 3 little tiny 'things'......The 3 little things were perfectly round so I am gathering they are new cysts developing but the other 3 were abstract shaped like we have seen before with the Corpus Leutium when I conceived before so we are still on the road to POSITIVITY!!

Plus Aaron was talking about them on the way home giving me the dimensions and talking about the shape too so He is believing it too....

We shall see, NEXT WEEK cant come soon ENOUGH!!

Waiting

The waiting is KILLING me.....I am the type of person that cant have a gift sent to me with a tag on it that say "Wait til Christmas" to open it cause almost ALWAYS I will open it the day I get it cause I just can't wait!! According to calculations IF we are expecting today I am 2weeks and 6 days. Most people wouldnt even suspect it by now.

I have to say that if this month was not successful I just dont know what I will do....I have never wanted or tried to have anything so badly before in my life!! My senses have been telling me that we did conceive and that we will carry to term so that is what I am believing and willing my body to do....

Optomistic

So Tracy called from the Doctors office yesterday morning and said that Dr Packin agreed I should start the Progesterone BID and to come in on Monday (8/11/08) for US & BW. She said he also felt Optomistic even though I O'd early that 'A' and I may have conceived the old fashion way without the planned IUI.

FINGERS & TOES Crossed!!

Injections put on Hold

I just got a call from the Doctors office and they said I needed to stop the Follistim Injections. I felt upset right away until the next words came out of her mouth which were it looks like you ovulated over the weekend and what we thought were cysts on your Ultrasound this morning are actually Corpus Lutetium. I put my upsetment on hold and asked her to explain. She said that my bloodwork indicates that I am producing Progesterone & in conjunction with another test looks like we may have conceived over the weekend but there is no way to know until next week some time for another US & BW. Because of my miscarriage history and sudden decline in Progesterone with Pregnancy I asked her if I should started the Progesterone suppositories. She said I will get a call from her in the morning to let me know if the Doctor wants me to do that and also give me my appt for next week.......

Oh baby or Babies if you can hear me

For now we are in Limbo waiting.......